It comes as a great relief to realise that you could not have lived your life in any other way despite all the reasons and stories you tell yourself about how things could have been different.
They weren’t different because they weren’t.
The degree to which we think our conscious awareness has control and agency over our actions is greatly overstated.
Indeed I would go as far as to say what we think are choices and decisions are pure fantasy applied after the fact to instantiate a sense of a separate, autonomous entity of selfhood.